Lala.

#4. Break breaking broke.

2011-09-15T18:14:00.005+08:00

Before we met, it was about me, myself and I
Then, I showed you what was pure exuberant love
I couldn’t hold it so I spilt gallons of jealousy on you
Eventually, you started to hate me and I hated you too
Sorry, I tried to love you enough, but I loved you too much.
-Tumblr

True lol :/.

So many shits happened recently. I can't handle sia cb. Lol. By so many i mean so many.

We were so close during th holiday and when school reopened, you treated me like shit.

You don't talk to me anymore.

You don't text me anymore.

You don't really reply to my texts anymore.

You don't bother asking me what's wrong anymore.

You don't care anymore.

I still remembered whut brought us 'together'; a simple Facebook tagging status. We were sorta like 'married' and we got so close since then. Yea, I miss you so much.

Sigh. I really miss those days where you really brought me tons of laughter. Those days where we talked like there'll be no tomorrow. Those days where we were so close..

Typing this while crying. Lol. I must be mad.

Yesterday I texted you @ around 10am+. You didn't reply. Then later that day on th bus, Farah used her phone and texted you. You replied straight away. And i like, straight away cried. I waited for another about 5 hours before I decided to text you another text. Then you replied. Heartbeaking, really.

I really don't know whut to do anymore. So...... Fuck my fucking life.

I kept telling Farah that I don't like you. I'm sure I don't. Perhaps I'm just a little....... Disappointed & broken inside? Sigh I don't know. ;/.

Break, breaking, broke.

#3. Awesomeness.

2011-08-24T18:33:00.004+08:00

yo.

today was kinda awesome uh. music lesson rocks. hehe.

and yea, i don't feel as hurt as before anymore. guess i've let go le ba. (pray hard it's right) haha.

i so fulled of injuries recently eh :@. yesterday Nadiah used floorball stick whack my leg, ankle there. till now still swollen sia. so pain haobuhao. T_T. then Seepeng swing th stick, whack dao my arm. lolwtf. anddhen, Nadiah (again) used th stick, whack dao my leg again. LOLOL. KELIANTTM. then then today FARAH use her nails scratch dao my hand, bleed. now still got scratch line yo. power. i'm so pathetic... @_@

oh and i finally passed Chips my playmax form. -proud- :3

my results, quite surprising eh. i handed in one out of 2 art homework only, i got 69. then d&t i hand in not a lot, 71. O_O overall percentage 58.9% (LOL). class position 32/40. sob. ;-;

today during CME so busy eh, Mrs Lee talked to a lot of people. (me included) O_O. sh ask bestie about 'that annoying guy' things. i think. aft sh come back, Jlong tio called out, kena lectured cauz he keep playing with bestie's hair. LOL. after that is Kirren, dk whuthe say to teacher, i got called out next. then teacher is like....

'this is a cohab school, must learn to respect th opp gender. try not to disturb them.' then sh talked about th bubble theory. so cute. LOL. sure iz Kirren say i bully him la. knn. :@ k Dylan's next. teacher go ask why he lock ppl up in classroom. then he say cauz their duty, they dw do, so lock them up. Mrs Lee was like. 'oh, good. they deserve it.' HAHAHA. awesome form teacher i have eh. XD.

currently mapling as usual. lv 83. SO SLOW CAN. offing at around 7.30/8. do homework. forevergoodgirl97. :3

hey. last long yo nii-chan. you happy, i happy.

爱情的伟大. loveya. :)

#2. Screwed up.

2011-08-23T19:35:00.002+08:00

hai. LOL.

yay. i'm updating my blog. LOL -feels lika idiot-

tiring day today. woo. choir. played ball...? epic much. /troll/ but overall still kinda full uh. hmm. still owe my English & Maths & D&T homework eh, so screwed. couldn't concentrate at all yesterday. can't stop thinking about SOMEONE.................. :/. aha. th moment i see his text only i'd break down. fugggggggggggg.

-clears mind-

ah. i really dk whut to post ah. th frigging scroll bar doesn't work. zzzz. k. passing over to Farah beetchz now. asking her help me code. hahaha. i tried myself, SCREWED EVERYTH UP. diao. currently facebooking. ppl spamming me noti. ZZZZZ.

Matthew. can you fking STOP spamming my noti? i'm starting to get irritated. no joke. -.-

srsly? lol.

k time for Maple before doing homework. again. haha.

ciaos.

P/S. I LOVE ZHIYONG FROM ON THE FRINGE. HEHEHE.

to him;

imissyou.

#1. Yet another blog.

2011-08-22T18:17:00.003+08:00

K HIIIIIII! made another new blog, hopefully will have time to update regularly yo. i don't know whut happened with th side bar thingy, can't scroll. my apologies. lol. :p

okay so, main purpose of this blog is for me to relive some stress. okay, not some, but a lot. i'm not good in h2h/f2f talks with my friends. so... yea. damn loads things happened this few days. i lost th guy whom i really very absoutely loved. he... went into a relationship with another girl. aha. all my fault i guess. shouldn't have just kept quiet bout it. i shouldn't even like him in th first place i guess.. hmm... school's schedule kinda tied down too. other than mondays and fridays, i won't usually reach home till about.. 4 or 5? ~_~ and this year, th streaming year. makes me feel so.. scared. so afraid that i might drop to NA. gah. hopefully that won't happen yo. if it really happened.... i'd die. :/. alright~ time for maple. shall relax a bit before heading to my pile of homework. hehe. bye. ^^

as far as i know, i've never worth a single little bit in your heart. i'm forever your 'imouto'. tho i like that term, it hurt for you to use it on me now; for me to be your 'younger sister'.... sigh. fuck.

''i can never be your girl.'' was whut i kept telling myself to convince myself to give up on you, but my heart simply just can't let you go. it's... literally driving me insane.

*you're literally driving me insane.

i need you.